While he was gone I was able to lose another 10 pounds. I also did something that I never done before. I highlighted my hair. I asked for caramel but they came out blond. I have never done more than cut or perm my hair.
I love my husband so much. He has helped me deal with things, that I probably would never have dealt with without him. Just last night we were talking about our friends and how I only have girl friends. I never talk to any guys other than my husband, unless those guys are his friends and he is around. My husband could not understand it. That was when I had to admit to myself that because what happened between my parents my Senior year of high school I made the decision to stay as far away from men who were not my husband. He also helped me realize that what happened that year still haunts me. Between that and the issues I went though as a child, health wise, physically, mentally, and emotionally, I cannot forgive my parents and pretend that everything is okay and never happened. Especially recently. I opened up my apartment to my parents this summer, and how did they repay me? By stealing the real opal birthstone ring my grandfather gave me right before he died. They thought they had gotten away with it since I do not wear it besides on special occasions. When I told them that it was gone, they admitted to taking it and pawning it.
So yet again I am stressed. Between the school work, finding a house, my normal every day duties, and the crap my parents keep putting me though, I am having a hard time trying to find peace. If it wasn't for my husband and the wise, kind words of a few good cousins I do not know what I would do.
